Six Train’s sequel is decimating me. What I thought was a good second draft isn’t. And I’m trying to balance my vision for the story against my betas’ comments.
I’ve run the emotional gamut from let’s burn this entire manuscript and stop the series to maybe it’s not so bad to oh my goodness I’ll never get this right and back again.
Luckily, I’m also working on my revision workshop for schools. I included a section on processing feedback. When I was practicing the talk, I remembered this is just how I do it. I don’t think it’s the best way, but it’s my way.
It’s also awful and draining. I hate going through this. But this is the only way I can get through feedback. I ride an emotional rollercoaster until it’s done. So I’ve just got to strap myself in for another 8-10 weeks of feeling every high and low.
And then I get a break before I do it all over again with my editor.
In case you were wondering, I don’t get better at processing feedback. I get quicker. The same grueling emotional experience applies–just at a much faster pace.
I know feedback is necessary for the story. I know it’s part part of the writing process. It’s just difficult to change my perspective on a deadline. To hear all that isn’t working and then come up with solutions that work for the story. The entire time I’m battling all the self doubt that comes along with it.
Do I appreciate my beta readers? Absolutely. I need test readers to tell me what is and isn’t on the page. To show me what I’m showing them. Have we remained friends after every beta session? Of course. They are doing me a massive favor. Even if it takes a few months to smile about it.
How do you work through feedback?